Beautiful Lies.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Behind These Hazel Eyes

by Kelly Clarkeson

Seems like just yesterday

You were a part of me

I used to stand so tallI used to be so strong

Your arms around me tight

Everything, it felt so right

Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe

No, I can't sleepI'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyesI told you everything

Opened up and let you in

You made me feel alright

For once in my life

Now all that's left of meIs what I pretend to be

So together, but so broken up inside

'Cause I can't breathe

No, I can't sleepI'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once againI'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out

For hating you, I blame myself

Seeing you it kills me now

No, I don't cry on the outside

Anymore...

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep insideBut you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once againI'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

6:47 PM

Sunday, November 29, 2009

i am damn confused :(
i do not know whether i can trust him.
he lives in cyprus for god's sake!
and he thinks abt sex every 7 seconds and
music every second
he wants to see me
he sounds sweet
oh is this right?
someone help me

7:27 PM

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Promenade!
Well..........
Prom was fun for half of it, atleast.
I mean it was kinda draggy n the most fun part was seeing all my school mates looking so hot!
i loved my dress..
and also, i wished i was thin, really.....

Drama Farewell Party!
the best farewell party ever!
I'm gonna miss drama soooooo bloody much!
i fell sick after that but worth the wait, worth the fun! :)

BBQ!
i had a small tiff with my sister and it was alright later but i hate it when she treats me like a child.
but nvm la. it was okay. met a few very nice ppl.
i mean i know they existed but i finally had a chance to talk to them and it's fun.
we left really late and i really love my sister's secondary school friends.
they are uber cool. i miss them already.... haha :D

10:36 PM

Monday, November 16, 2009

I'm seriously not lieing but the previous post i wrote simply vanished.
I have no idea how so but it did. and so did my anger on everyone.
It even included my ex-crush...
What a waste, what a waste...
Nothing exciting going on right now.
Parents still fighting & patching up things on thier own. Trust me, its irritating.
And my siblings are alright. Weare bitchy to each other like always but we still do love each other sooo damn much.
Its boring not having a crush.
I haven't met a new guy and that cute skeleton designed hoody guy last fri or the hot guy at gym yst doesn't count.
Its been ages since i even talked to someone new or went on a social gathering.
I have a feeling BBQ this sat will help but lets just wait & see...
oh and prom's coming. its such a sweet looking dress but i wonder how i'll look in them seriously. i'll most probably spoil the whole look. damn!
and thr's also drama farewell this fri... finally! haha...
miss drama soooo much!
i seriously cant believe i've finished my exams cos idk, it seems to be too big a fantasy to be real.... :)
oh and i jus read twilight like for e third time. moving on to new moon... will be watching twilight by nxt week n gonna catch new moon in the theatres! yippee!
oh and speaking of movies, paranormal activity was uber awesome! seriously.
i had fun with aida, arini & puteri...
poo3 was scared stiff... hahaha. it was soooo funny sitting beside her
and oh, thr was this grp of minahs sitted behind us & one of them kept saying shit like a million times.
& it was so damn bloody loud. like excuse me, i didnt pay 6 bucks to hear u say shit all thru e movie, seriously....
and tat's when i saw e guy wearing the skeleton designed hoody. angmoh n cute... hehe
weekend was really draggy n yst, i was off to the gym & am still tired. lol. n i saw this real cute guy.. indian, i suppose, but cute.. hehe. sigh...
when will i ever become eighteen?
& even if i hv a bf when i'm 18, mom said she'll marry me off to him. like wat e hell!
she keeps on saying it tat it sounds like she'll do it.
but hey, i dont even noe when i'll get a bf. perhaps, when i'm 80?
so thr, life goes on.... & i'm bored like hell!!!

10:50 PM

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

How do i lie?

You lie with your eyes.

They say the eyes are the window to the soul, but you protect your soul to the bitter end.

You can control the amount of information your eyes give to people.

When you lie, you are very convincing because your eyes seem to agree with your words.

You can say so much with very little actual talking.

People trust you, even if they shouldn't, but it takes a lot for you to trust anyone.

When you gaze into peoples' eyes, it is an intense stare.

People often look away because when they look into your eyes, they feel like you know all of there secrets; almost like you can read their minds.

However, when you do trust someone enough to show them your soul, they get lost in your eyes and cannot look away.

People who lie with their eyes are the most convincing liars.

You lie to protect people from the world, but you also lie to protect yourself. You like to keep the focus on others rather than yourself.

At times, your friends will get on the subject of you and realize how little they actually know about you.

You are good at slyly changing the subject, but there are people out there who recognize this behavior.

These people are both your weakness, and your greatest friends.

It takes a very understanding, intelligent person to understand what goes on inside your head.

You often will hang out with people who don't quite understand what you are doing because you feel safer knowing no one is inside your head.

You, however, are inside everyones' head.

You know their feelings and motives and lie to manipulate them into doing the smart thing.

You block yourself from others who think like you, but let them inside your head every once in a while, and you will find that it is worth the risk.

1:24 PM