Beautiful Lies.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

I’m not sure how to describe this feeling. The overwhelming urge to keep smiling. The constant movement of butterflies in my stomach. The depressing thoughts of depression that are building up in my mind.

I wonder if he noticed my shy smile when he hugged me goodbye. He hugged me, for the first time. It felt so warm and everything around me went out of focus. I just wanted to stay there, locked in his embrace and tell him that I wanted much more.

It felt surreal, like I was dreaming. The whole day I mean. I couldn’t help but stare at his long lashes, crooked nose, and his hand on mine when he taught me how to fly a kite. Oh, I miss him so much already.

I know I’m too young to fall in love, I know. But I’m not in love. I just have a huge, the size of a gazillion elephants, crush on a too tall, too skinny Indian guy who looks like a cockroach, apparently, and has no idea how much this random girl in his life likes him.

How I wish he could just read my mind. Or maybe, if I was a hot chick, he would have already asked me out. Maybe, just maybe. Let’s just hope and pray he’s not that naive or shallow minded.

Should I just tell him I like him? What if he stops talking to me after that? I’d rather lose a crush than a friend.

Oh well. Shit happens, life goes on and then, you die.

♥Kanages

12:13 AM

♥Kanages

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