Friday, December 31, 2010
01012011.
My first post for the year 2011.
I’m going to sing and dance on stage this year.
I’m going to learn classical music this year.
I’m going to lose weight this year.
I’m going to love and laugh like crazy and live like there’s no tomorrow this year.
I’m not going to regret this year. ♥Kanages
9:32 AM
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
My last blog post for the year 2011.
January
I got my O level results on the eleventh. It was a tough time, making decisions that would change my life. But I did, and that was the best decision in my life.
It was my first step to teaching. I’ll never forget my first students. A naughty bunch of lower primary kids who never failed to make me laugh.
I also went for an external drama audition, and that is another decision I’ll never regret taking.
I also started going on Omegle, a decision I regret, even now.
February
I got selected to be TigerLily. One of the major achievements in my life.
Helped out my mom in the canteen. Though I never really got paid, I grew closer to my mom and sharing her workload made me realise how hard she works.
I took another tuition assignment and it was the start of another conflict between my mom and dad.
March
It was confirmed, I was going to Singapore Polytechnic’s School of Communication, Arts and Social Sciences. I was going to pursue the course of my dreams. I was thrilled, still am.
This was the time I became immersed in singing. I was also supposed to enter a singing competition but decided against it. I wanted to be more experienced in it.
April
I started school and have been loving it ever since. I found a new part in me and also realised that it was the real part of me. Which didn’t hide, or conceal itself. And I loved it. I found the sweetest friends who I would never want to lose.
Life was good and as usual, my dad had to come and spoil things for me. He got arrested for not paying his traffic summons and fines. It was embarrassing. My mom betrayed me by pawning the only jewellery she had for him, to bail him out. I hated him to the core.
Jai also came into my life once again. He’s a lost cause and I don’t want to talk about it.
May
May whizzed past with midterm tests and confusing lectures. After a long time, I had the will and strength to focus and stress over school, rather than anything serious. I liked that feeling, to be free of major responsibilities and to finally act my age.
June
I turned sweet 17.
I got roses from three lovely people. I realised that people love me. And I mean something to them.
We went on a family trip to Batam. It was a miracle my dad could make it. I had a lot of fun, a lot of happy memories. My dad was finally closer to us. He had finally seen that family is important. I started to love him again. We went Clarke Quay as well. It was fun, especially with three handsome Caucasians checking me out. I’ll never forget those drunken men.
I also joined CASS Idol, another lost cause. I was so excited for it. I wanted to show people I was talented too, so badly.
It was also the time I wanted a boyfriend so badly and when I found myself a crush, once again, another lost cause. I have no idea why I even fell for him. Maybe it was because he was such a good flirt; I have always been a sucker for flirts. Maybe because he always complimented me. Maybe because I was crazy over his brown eyes. Anyways, I’m so over him. Okay, I’m lying. But I’ll never stand a chance with him, not after what he did.
Oh yeah, Michael Jackson died. And dad actually cried.
July
It started off fine. I was really excited for the CASS Idol auditions. I was finally going to do what I wanted to do.
And then 07th of July came and my world came crashing. My dad died, just like that. It feels like just yesterday that I had gotten him Seven up and we had talked about football, talking is something we rarely did but the next day, he was gone and it has been 6 moths already. Can you even believe it? I still cannot. Everything has slipped by in a haze since then. I’m not sure when I’ll stop missing him. but I did learn one thing. I have the sweetest friends you can ever find on earth. That includes my primary and secondary school mates. My poly friends. And the people from Arteen Furteens. I felt so loved and I appreciate all your love.
The month went by with people dropping in, crying with us, and I learnt that no matter how much you grow to hate a person, if you had once loved him, you’ll always love him.
August
He’s one month death anniversary came on his birthday. It was nightmarish.
It wasn’t that bad but it was bad alright?
And we had community chest. I still can’t believe we won. I was so happy. The best thing to happen to me in ages.
September
Two important dates.
15th: Parents’ 26th Wedding anniversary. My mom stoned the whole day. My sis had to get her roses to make her cry. Traumatising, it was.
21st: Bala’s 12th Birthday. We had a mini celebration. We just couldn’t make him forsake his last year as a child for my dad’s death. He’s just a child.
I also had communication problems with my sister. They were bad but we came over it. October
Took up another tuition assignment.
Got straight B’s for exams.
Started a brand new semester.
Fell in love on the last day of the month. Crazy as it may sound; I was head over heels over that guy. He does know that I exist but I bet he doesn’t have such feelings for me whatsoever. That’s alright, I’m fine now.
November
Deepavali was a disaster. I cried the whole day, really.
Bala got his PSLE results, they weren’t spectacular but he did his best. After everything that he had to go through, I feel so proud of him.
December
Important dates:
9th: Akka’s 25th Birthday. I tried my very best to make her happy, and she was, thank god for that. Her friends did an awesome job.
13th and 14th: VPDP Filming. Had loads of fun and even got screamed at. I had a really good time with my team.
15th-18th: Phuket! I’m in love with that place. No school, no work, no financial problems, no lack of handsome men. I’m migrate to Phuket, anytime now.
25th: Christmas! It was weird without dad. But I overcame all feelings and enjoyed myself. Watched Gulliver’s Travel and that is one of the many reasons I want to travel all around the world. To find mythical creatures like myself.
I could smile without effort after months.
So, 2010 has been a good lesson for me. It made me treasure life, love more and hate less.
It also taught me that life can be an insensitive bitch but Karma would never let you down.
I learnt to differentiate the evil fox from the harmless, loving people who actually do care.
In short, I love you all and have a fantastic 2011!
9:54 PM
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
You were born to make people laugh.
You love to be the center of attention and you aren't afraid to look a little silly doing it. People generally like you because you're so fun and adventurous.
5:03 PM
