Beautiful Lies.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

If you really love me, don't try and change me. - Jennifer Love Hewitt

I love him but I cannot show it, want him but he cannot know it, need him but I know it'll never be, if only he needed me

Because he knows the worst thing about me, and its okay. -Meet Joe Black

It's a curious thought, but it's only when you see people looking ridiculous that you realize just how much you love them. -Agatha Christie

Have you ever had that person that you can't seem to stop thinking about...and you don't know why?

The man of your dreams could be standing right in front of you.

2:32 AM

After a long time, I think I’m crushing on someone.
Yeah I know, I’ve only seen him once and that we only spent time together for like, ten hours and I have no freaking idea if I am going to see him again but, I think I like him.
The way he talks, he keeps me thinking.
I know it is almost impossible for a guy to fall for me or even check me out just like that but it is only almost impossible.
I don’t think he is soooo handsome or drop dead gorgeous but he is cute.
And he makes me smile, even though there is no reason for me to be doing so.
And out of all the guys whom I had met yesterday, he is the only one who has stayed etched on my mind.
I went to sleep thinking about him and I woke up thinking about him.
I seriously do not want to have a crush on a guy whom I’m not going to talk to again but I just can’t help it.
It has been a long time since I felt this way and it feels good.
I feel good.

1:47 AM

Friday, October 29, 2010

SERIOUSLY!!!
What the hell is wrong with blogwalkers?
They’re so so irritating.
Do I look as if I care about some lame diploma programme or how to prevent hair fall?
They are so stupid and irrelevant.
Just check out this comment.
Mike: i hope u can continue to write about this topic. really nice!
My previous post was about my dead dad!
Honestly, don’t they have anything else to do?
Maybe they get paid to do this shit.
Just piss off, losers.

3:27 AM

Thursday, October 21, 2010

I miss my dad.
A lot and a lot.
With Deepavali just around the corner, I feel so weird.
Like I want to die.
I can’t even cry anymore.
All my tears have dried up.
It just hurts, a lot.
I really wish that he’ll come back.
It will make things so much nicer.
So much easier.
But he isn’t going to come back, is he?
He really did cheat all of us.
I want to cry out loud.
Scream.
Break things.
I feel so helpless.
Can someone help me?
Can someone hug me and tell me that everything will be okay and hold me there in your arms like my dad used to when I was younger?
Can someone nag at me all the time and irritate me till I cry like he used to do almost every single day?
Can someone make me hate you by doing all the bad things in the world?
Can someone laugh with me so much that my stomach aches a lot?
Can someone make me eat so much and then complain about me not trying to lose weight?
Can someone be my dad?
Can someone bring me my dad?
Please.
I’ll do anything.
Anything at all.
Please.
I want my dad.
Ask him to make me stop crying.
Like he always does.
Ask him to come back.
Please.

6:09 AM

Monday, October 18, 2010

"My Immortal"
By:Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

6:35 AM

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Anyways, ask him to fuck off la.
He's apparently depressed and is suicidal.
And is that a reason for me to show up naked at his door?
Seriously.
All he wants to do is get under my clothes.
He never liked me. Even as a friend.
I bet he saw me like some sex object.
Wonder if he sees his mom like that.

Yeah he fought with me.

11:36 PM

ATTENTION ALL BLOGWALKERS!

WALK ALL YOU WANT ON MY BLOG

BUT DON'T YOU DARE LEAVE ANY FOOTSTEPS!!!

PS: All I meant was please do not leave messages on my tagboard.

10:37 PM

♥Kanages

All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts, his acts being seven ages.
-William Shakespeare

Chocolates are irresistable.
If someone were to harm my family or a friend or somebody I love, I would eat them. I might end up in jail for 500 years, but I would eat them.

Aida
Arini
Asnira
Darlene
Hawa
Humairah
Jie Lin
Joel
Liting
Muhaimin
Mysara
Phoebe
Syakina
Zi Yang
Zubaidah