Thursday, November 4, 2010
This is depressing.
This is going to be the first Deepavali without my dad.
I still cannot believe he is gone.
I know everyone is talking about moving on but seriously, you have no idea how difficult it is.
I have come to the point where I cant even cry anymore because the pain is too much, I feel numb.
I feel this silly, sick sensation in the pit of my stomach and it slowly and painfully moves up to my heart and then my throat and it chokes me and paralyses me until I feel like screaming. It shakes me so much that I just feel like collapsing.
I miss my dad.
Why, seriously,why?
Why did he have to go?
Why did he have to go now?
6:16 AM
