Beautiful Lies.

Monday, March 21, 2011

That’s it. This is it. I am not going to let a crush take over my life.
I feel so miserable, like there is no purpose in life.

All I do is sit around, whining and complaining about why my life has to be so unfair.
And the only reason for this is him.

Because he doesn’t know.
He doesn’t know that I miss him so much.
He doesn’t know that I think of him every day.
He doesn’t know that I force myself not to text him all the time.
He doesn’t know that I really want to tell him how I feel towards him but hold back my words for fear of rejection.

He doesn’t know that I feel horrible and terrible because I know he doesn’t notice.
And the worst part is that he doesn’t know that he is making me fall for him deeper and deeper by his actions and words.

By the way he talks.
By the way he looks at me, maintains an eye connection before looking away.
And though he looks like a Somalia kid who has malnutrition and talks like as if he rules the world, I still do like him and I don’t have the slightest idea why.

And it is annoying and disgusting.
I feel so ashamed that I can’t even control a crush. A huge crush.
I feel so helpless.
I’m not stalking him or am obsessed over him but I just can’t help but grin when anyone mentions him.

Is it wrong?

Oh just shut up Kanages.

10:27 PM

♥Kanages

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