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Sunday, March 6, 2011

Well well well.

It has been too long. And way too many things have been happening in life.

First and foremost, I have been diagnosed with hypothyroidism.
Hypothyroidism is a condition in which the thyroid gland does not make enough thyroid hormone.The thyroid gland is located in the front of the neck just below the voice box (larynx). It releases hormones that control metabolism.

Early symptoms:
• Being more sensitive to cold
• Constipation
• Depression
• Fatigue or feeling slowed down
• Heavier menstrual periods
• Joint or muscle pain
• Paleness or dry skin
• Thin, brittle hair or fingernails
• Weakness
• Weight gain (unintentional)

The symptoms in bold are what I have been going through since the start of the year. I have to take medication and it is tiring, to keep up with everything. I’m not anywhere near the danger zone but I need to go for a blood test every three months. That is like 4 times a year, for as long as I live. It is so irritating because I never asked for it. And I don’t think I deserve it at all. I mean, all I want is for people to be happy and safe and God decides to make me fall sick? That’s sickening but I choose to think of it as a challenge. After all, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, right? I don’t care, seriously. As long as I don’t die before achieving all the things I want to do.

Secondly, Peterpan Revamped is this week! Woohooooo! I can’t wait for Thursday to arrive and rock the stage with awesome people. I’m going to miss them, really. And I’m so joining AFT. I’ve gone through too much of madness with them to stop and be sane for even a moment. I’m just so sad that Appa won’t be here to watch both me and Bala perform on one big stage. And I’m so proud of Bala. Though he can be such a pesky little brat most of the time, he has learnt to grow up. Atleast a little. Oh and isn’t awesome that both my best friends can’t make it? Oh well, I still love them.

Thirdly, this guy I had a tiny winy (Who am I kidding?) crush on, he is dating this girl who is very nice and sweet. As much as I wish I was her, I wish them luck. I’m not saying this because I want him to be happy, that would be so ridiculous. I’m saying this because it would have happened if it was meant to be. But no, it didn’t. So let’s just hope and pray that God has something better for me. So Dear God, you better have something good planned for me. If not…
Lastly, I miss Appa and I love my family a lot. So much that I would die for them. Serious.

There is nothing in life more painful than losing a loved one,
the love is there forever though,
we never really lose them only from the physical plane,
because where love exists there can be no loss.

♥Kanages

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♥Kanages

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