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Wednesday, June 15, 2011

"If I Die Young"
The Band Perry

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls


4:16 AM

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Tongue-tied speechless
it's all tangled up inside
trapped within my mind
i'll stumble and freak out
bound to hit the wall
i'm sure to trip and fall

In a twisted web of words
i'll try to make it work

But you gotta read beteen the line
As i'm pouring out my soul
look into my eyes and you'll know
'coz words can't describe
what i'm feeling deep inside
i gotta hope you feel the spark
in my letter to your heart
(can't write this down)
(can't write it down)
in my letter to your heart
(can't write this down)
(can't write it down)

quiet silence
tryin' to find a way
the things i'll never say
i'll try to slow down
and speak up
but words would never help
i'm a victim of myself

In a twisted web of words
i'll try to make it work

But you gotta read beteen the line
As i'm pouring out my soul
[. From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/a/aaliah-micheala-lyrics/letter-to-your-heart-lyrics.html .]
look into my eyes and you'll know
'coz words can't describe
what i'm feeling deep inside
i gotta hope you feel the spark
in my letter to your heart
(can't write this down)
(can't write it down)
in my letter to your heart
(can't write this down)
(can't write it down)

fell the beating in my chest
hoping you can hear the rest
of what my heart is shouting to the world

But you gotta read beteen the line
As i'm pouring out my soul
look into my eyes and you'll know
'coz words can't describe
what i'm feeling deep inside
i gotta hope you feel the spark
in my letter to your heart
(can't write this down)
(can't write it down)
in my letter to your heart
(can't write this down)
(can't write it down)

ooh ooh
this is my letter to your heart
letter to your heart

4:27 AM

Friday, May 20, 2011

Some people just irritate the shit out of me.
It is not because I get angry over the slightest things nowadays.
It’s not because I’m super stressed over things.
And no it’s not because I am very, very sick and my health is really bad.
Maybe it’s because some people are just so sensitive. Please sense my sarcasm here.
I feel damn fucked up and messed up and isn’t it mean that what people say or do makes someone feel that way?
I would never do anything that would make someone feel this way.
But isn’t it weird that I call them my friends?
No matter how sweet they can be, and friendly they can be, that is just mean.

12:56 AM

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Fucking irritated.
By everyone.
By people who scold for no reason.
By people who bitch for no reason.
By people who give you unconditional love only to disappear.
By people who don’t give a damn about how you feel.
By people who hurt you though they love you.
It’s just plain oh so fucking annoying, okay?
I’m not a piece of tool to vent your anger on.
Nor am I an object to be kicked around.
And I certainly don’t think I am fool.
So just fuck off.
What hurts the most is they’re family.
You are family.
Don’t you understand the meaning of being sensitive?

5:41 AM

Sunday, April 24, 2011

I’m not sure how to describe this feeling. The overwhelming urge to keep smiling. The constant movement of butterflies in my stomach. The depressing thoughts of depression that are building up in my mind.


I wonder if he noticed my shy smile when he hugged me goodbye. He hugged me, for the first time. It felt so warm and everything around me went out of focus. I just wanted to stay there, locked in his embrace and tell him that I wanted much more.


It felt surreal, like I was dreaming. The whole day I mean. I couldn’t help but stare at his long lashes, crooked nose, and his hand on mine when he taught me how to fly a kite. Oh, I miss him so much already.


I know I’m too young to fall in love, I know. But I’m not in love. I just have a huge, the size of a gazillion elephants, crush on a too tall, too skinny Indian guy who looks like a cockroach, apparently, and has no idea how much this random girl in his life likes him.



How I wish he could just read my mind. Or maybe, if I was a hot chick, he would have already asked me out. Maybe, just maybe. Let’s just hope and pray he’s not that naive or shallow minded.


Should I just tell him I like him? What if he stops talking to me after that? I’d rather lose a crush than a friend.


Oh well. Shit happens, life goes on and then, you die.

♥Kanages

12:13 AM

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

A Dads Poem.
Remembering those no longer with us.



Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats.

One by one the teacher called a student from the class.
To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching, a man who wasn't there.

"Where's her daddy at?" she heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one," another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back, she heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another
deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom.
And looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique.


"My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be, since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories.
He taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I'm not standing here alone.

"Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart
I know because he told me, he'll forever be in my heart"

With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress.

And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her, doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud.

"I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven's just too far.
You see he was a policeman and died just this past year.
When airplanes hit the towers and taught Americans to fear.


But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day.
And to her mothers amazement, she witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side.
"I know you're with me Daddy," to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been
closed.
But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, by the love of her shining
star.
And given the gift of believing, that heaven is never too far.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate
them,
a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

4:37 AM

Monday, March 21, 2011

That’s it. This is it. I am not going to let a crush take over my life.
I feel so miserable, like there is no purpose in life.



All I do is sit around, whining and complaining about why my life has to be so unfair.
And the only reason for this is him.



Because he doesn’t know.
He doesn’t know that I miss him so much.
He doesn’t know that I think of him every day.
He doesn’t know that I force myself not to text him all the time.
He doesn’t know that I really want to tell him how I feel towards him but hold back my words for fear of rejection.



He doesn’t know that I feel horrible and terrible because I know he doesn’t notice.
And the worst part is that he doesn’t know that he is making me fall for him deeper and deeper by his actions and words.



By the way he talks.
By the way he looks at me, maintains an eye connection before looking away.
And though he looks like a Somalia kid who has malnutrition and talks like as if he rules the world, I still do like him and I don’t have the slightest idea why.



And it is annoying and disgusting.
I feel so ashamed that I can’t even control a crush. A huge crush.
I feel so helpless.
I’m not stalking him or am obsessed over him but I just can’t help but grin when anyone mentions him.



Is it wrong?



Oh just shut up Kanages.



10:27 PM






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